Anusuya,its an ancient character. Its my love, yeah you can say that.Something which I have not found but keep eagerly, impatiently trying to find in my thoughts, imagination and experiences. Just like when we were taken care as a child,in our mother’s arm ,loved ,bathed ,brushed ,cared and i felt so blissful ,no words ,no lies ,no hatred , no lust , no badness , no assumption , no judgement. Everything as it.
Like I am important to my family ,so is everyone . As a son, a brother ,a student , a grandchild. yeah even the boy whom I beat and in return I was mobbed in kalu sarai. Her mother would have cried looking at his bleeding ear . still feel bad but after that; I never took up a fight and its been what,6 years since.
Coming to Anusuya…its me and what am i???? oh don’t ask me that. what i am ,you see everytime I ask myself this, I get new answers. Last time I was a theater teacher,with a broken heart and ????? ah…drop it. I am the good and bad. I have goodness of spirit and badness of all the bad that I have touched regardless of any judgement.
what is most important in today’s life???
with no time to feel truth ,greed for money ,lust for power ,false advertisement has taken a toll on our thoughts.
Time and its meaningful expenditure to fight a larger problem.
to love what you do
to live what you preach
to learn the teachings of ancestors
to lead those who need and make them independent
so ,anusuya community services.
I saw your body burn 10 years ago . I am sorry that I couldn’t carry you from home to Ghaat and that I got tired of your weight. If you were healthy and not paralysed , you would be happy to see this. You have always guided me ,not by your words but by your action. whatever i have got because of you i want it to reach many others.
your life was cut short by disease but people still remembered you ,they still take your name ,not many but few whom you really helped, it matters a lot.when i think of this, i forget about fame or money or girlfriends ,it all seems like a trap.
i wish to be free like you are now. amma keeps talking about you ,she misses you a lot, but i promise ,she will find you once more in me through my actions and my work till the last day.
I wish ,I also do something so that my many grand children can take my name and
enjoy the fruits of my labour,which shall further motivate them to continue this service.